Entry From Ebloggy - ( Public )-
The last time it happened.. i was barely surviving.. now.. is another one ? I really dunno... i'm bursting into tears any minute.. though i'm being calm after writing finish Mdm Chuang's punishment n playing awhile Devil May Cry 3.. but they didn't help i guess.. The 1st blade penentrated through my cold heart, it reheated all the ice within the heart, thus leaving it vunerable.. therefore, that's the reason for a drastic change in speed of walking.. n all that.. i only sealed up this injury yesterday coz Mr Neo gave me a satisfying reply about the future blOod generation.. Yet now, this 2nd blade pierce right through... This heart, which was torn apart by 2 previous blades... cannot hold longer soon.. The first 2 blades were really horrible.. i really cried, No NCO post n Bin Mei's death.. by that time i was devasted..my feeling seem to have all gone.. i was juz walking without any purpose i felt.. now is it happening again? The first blade that landed was abt the SYF, i really feel a pity, was breaking down into tears when i stopped myself.. i really dun wan to cry it out... seems like so childish n so foolish.. Big boy like me cry ? Next was juz this phone.. Mum was juz being a wet blanket... pouring all the cold water on me... F***... The phone she dun even know what's the freaking problem then now she say muz change, to the shop keeper when they say take to service centre..She was like making so much noise.... but then all was crap... pls la, they dun even know what's the phone problem how the hell will they change for u ? She juz argue wif me n simply dun wanna except my explaination... ok fine.. if it's that all i dun mind but she was being a wet blanket all the way.. it's like so irritating... N frustrating... Family is for comfort.. Darius wrote that... I doubt i'll agree wif that.. understand y those children who were taken by adopted parents refuse to let their original parents take them... becoz they felt the parents has let them down.. same case here....Furthurmore i was damn tired.. n my thots juz simply jump off anywhere.... i was hurt through the harsh words... suffering in silent... then i decide that this all is crap... till i thot, Y This phone was a gone case.. then Mum was still 'suan 'ing me damn it.. juZ felt so unfair, furthurmore was blaming me that i was the one causing so much trouble, coz the service centre close liao... I had went swimming then go Jurong Point wif Ding Jie find a birthday present then i got it for cythia... oh yeah.. juz as i stepped in she complain at the phone... she ownself nV give specificed instrutions lor.. she say wait for me come back.. then wait lor, i figured out she'll still have stuff to do n won't be back n done with all the stuff till 5.. but then 2.45 she manage to get back so early.. how i know ? Damn it.. then lOok at it in a bigger picture... was it me... or was it juZ luck ? ,-_-, ... I dun really know.. mixed emotions... i feel that i doubt i'll have any feeling left though.... haixXxZ.... jUz hope the phone can be repaired... hOpinG for a Better TOmOrrOw... PeRhaRpS..
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