Entry From Ebloggy 2 - ( Public )-
Frankly speaking.. Since 'o' kept my mind busy.. i haven't been really able to use my emotions well. Getting frustrated was one.. but there was another reason y.. which i immediately was gone into..my heart has fallen..somehow maybe it's due to whatever that's happened.. on top of that.. the plan i laid fail.. after the 'o' lvl chi.Initially was planning to go watch Star Wars III Revenge OF the Sith With Wei Xin and SM but Wei Xin watching with his friends. I dun blame him but a bit too last min coZ he that morning then say. As for Sm he already told me 'See first'.. Since it's the 'o's i nV did worry.. coZ if i worry i'll be distracted. But well.. plan crashed.. I called SM but didn't agree to the idea of Star wars... Edmund they all also watch liao or even twice.. then go tiong see Sm in person but still same reply so then.. erm where to go ? A huge sense of disappointment rained on me.. another huge storm has rain.. this time.. i kept the umbrella becoZ after the 'o's a huge sun light seem to shine.. but now the huge sun was gone.. with a heavy downpour drenched me wet. I quickly thot, then decide take the only way.. if wei xin dun come to me, then go to him since his destination is already set. Half my heart was already shattered.. half fading.. what if i fail to make it in time ?? M i the stupid one who waited till after 'o' and not get a chance to watch..argh..I press the axis station anxiously to get a reply.. since wei xin's destination is Bishan.. okZ manage to get it through... arrive in time bah.. no lunch. but well.. nVm..that was abt it... that day.. went esplanade too... carry that dictionary so heavy... Tired..i was this few days... yet.. nothing seem to be v. nice.. despite i know of everything... i juZ feel like crying it out now...what in the world EVER did happen !?Chester spoke:'If u happen to punish wrongly.. NV say sorry'.. I didn't follow that.. is it even worth it ? Nv Say sorry.. another pain seem to pierce my heart.. even if i did say sorry.. will it even change history.. strangely.. one who gives way now feels hurt... which i shdn't be... why ?.. i really dunno... maybe.. all this while..i have been wrong.. abt him.. abt band. Kelvin Chan.. is that the true horror of how the band works ? 'NV say sorry' cruel reality ? CoZ in order not to lose face ? I tink from now on i decide not to aim high.. nor get power any longer.. Great powers come with great responsibilities... he was one of a kind, an exception bah.. one who is has handsome as talent, yet manage to have many beautiful stories.. one who fulfills the destiny but doesn't care abt the process much.. yet being respected..me is the direct opposite of him. One who has nothing..yet gets storms lasting long to endure.. i who helps fulfill destiny but care more abt the process... yet not respected..HaixXxZ.. Forget it...juZ crapping bah..NVm u.. it's been nice working with ya.. at least i know u dun look at the interior.. but i look into that. So maybe i was wrong bah.. u are juZ who u shd be.. the right chosen leader by Kelvin Chan.. Sorry for wronging u then.. Do take careZz..Band has juZ isolated from me. I'll miss u guys pp.. i'll have myself only to depend on now.. i'll miss all the moments u've given me.. all the happy memories and times So TaKe CaReZZ =p Till I finish my 'o's N return !! =) Lots And Lots of Wishes & Love for U Juniors Aka Seniors( sec 3s ) and juniors now.. A farewell here.. but a meeting ahead ! So till Then.. Miss ya guys !!!
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