Memo R I E (S)

So, once in awhile, she pops up and mess with my head. "She" is J. Apparently like just a simple staycation sleepover, I kinda missed her beside me. Perhaps it's that memory of her just beside me with my arms over her nicely. I confessed, I subconsciously did it, until I realise it can't be her. I never slept side ways either. Though I couldn't confirm it was her, but the only thing I could relate to was that she was comfort, comfort within my comfort group of long old friends.

Passing by the old 139 bus stop, where it was just romantic to walk to the bus stop with her, taking bus back. It was really delightful. That was the kind of tomorrow I was meddling with back then, it just seems so pitiful now. The driving force of then, now a wasted and reflected upon tragic.

Charis reminded me back then that I should find her back. I was just playing logic. It's not fair for her either.

YL then gave me the "she could be missing you too". Likely, missing me out of her life might be the best thing ever. Both of us won't return back to the days then, both of us have just become strangers again. 

This big heart knot is one of the major things to bury in my heart here.

"Don't stop believing in tomorrow, even if today cease to exist."

Been dwelling on a big holiday to go explore/run away once Clara's back from maternity. Her scope was quite huge to handle, I'm still struggling. Turkey or ?