Entry From Ebloggy - ( Public )
Still love the morning best... rather than dust.. DaWn than Dust... coz it's much Quietier...not only that..thought gives u a eerie feeling of alone sometimes... however no one to disturb u...... as for the eerie feeling.. it refers to late midnight i mean... coz u dun have that in Dawn ? I've decided.... in time to come.. both memories will not be able to merge... but they're still a part of me.. to merge some muz be forgotten.. like HEr.... which i sort of find it hard.. i know that being cold to HEr is unfair i gues i shd not have anything to do wif HEr life actually... So i'm sealing up the memories.. as well as romance to go wif it... Coz it seems like it's rather hard for me to progress in that...n thinking abt it only reminds me of HEr... a dream that is impossible to have... I hope i wouldn't fall for anyone.. perharps... coz i dun have the qualities... so i'm taking romance to go wif it... in the meantime... i look for the dream gal ? In any case... she wouldn't be appearing that soon.. the only thing i wan abt her is her speciality for looking at inner beauty... well.... Though SHe possess very good qualities like what Valerie was telling me.. Good looking, Responsible Leader, always there for band, but then i still have a fear... that SHe might break down one day... n that day would be terrible.... as much as i wish to help up this band.. it seems to me that i dun have the power n the stuff... so i'll juz sit aside n let the X-cos do it.. maybe it's becoz i interfere too much liao. causing things to happen.. like Alice la... well.. to tink of it... i didn't regret being an X-co cause i eventually know that rumours would come... in the meantime.. they didn't hurt me till like when that incident regarding the clarinet section happened? i being to tink that things that dun seem to hurt usually maybe cling to u.... but hurt u when ur protection is down... that's what i fear abt HEr... if shd one day so... SHe'll break down for a long time ? This gal here lacks the freedom in HEr home.. that's y when SHe needs someone maybe SHe can't talk things out... however.... that's not gonna happen.. i juz tink too much maybe ? Coz SHe has a strong will.. to perserver n so on... i guess that'll nv happen... if so shd it happen.... maybe juz a short time.. hope SHe'll recover fast then.. in the meantime. it's alreeady 6.15am... i type so fast also still like so little time.. kz la.. gtg school liao.. then have Band.. after that come back n c how lor... maybe i'll be exhuasted by then....dunno ? TaKe CaReZzz
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