Entry From Ebloggy 2 - ( Public )-
Today.. is juZ... tiring.. Seems to me now.. Chester is juZ who he is... maybe he's attitude's better coZ of stepping down.. but y bother burden ? Maybe he juZ seeks power... nVm... ZZZZZzzzzz told myself.. y r u so stupid to bother ?I too wonder y i wanna bother.. is it for band ? Yes... i know.. but what can u do ? Kinda stupid me.. worrying over all the un neccessary things... everything crashes on... i seemed to be slashed all sides... Alice.. some wounds healed.. but scars are left behind... is it my fault ? i guess i'm not leaving in a fairy tale.. wake up ! It's not so easy for a galZ to forgive u... No wonder she still blocks me... but i dun blame u... maybe it's juZ me la.. i have many friends.. doesn't mean i dun have enemies or pp hating me.. haixXxZ.. this isn't a story.. like when i'm stepping down... all that.. i tink.. that seem to me quite hard a blow... hated.. by ur own pp...the pp whom u watch grow.. that may be the hardest thing.. juZ like ur clostest friend to kill u.. forget it..i dun hold it against back stabbers too.. they have their reason... after all.. in my eyes... Alice.. Hui Min.. both of u.. have good peace.. u have sisters to look after u.. each other to look out in times of trouble.. unlike many of us... who walks paths of great peril.. no one actually holds me when i fall... and i fall deep... no one to clean the wound cept me... a sudden link gate opens... coZ Mitchell asked me... is sec 2 to me hard ? I told him yea.. it was horrible for me... today... ( let's head back to today for clearly info).. Reported to school... then HuiMin, Keli same bus.. Jessica by the gate.. then go band room. Then i warmed up the band.. didn't do much.. mr neo came soon... but glad able to conduct one last time... went downstairs..Mr Chan screamed at us.. what the hell ?! Early in the morning leh.. we didn't mean to step wrongly across a path.. " DUN U DARE STEP ON THE FLOOR !" i would have shouted F U.. But i decided not too... gggrrrrr... how could he shout AT MY PEOPLE IN THE MORNING WHEN THEY ACCIDENTALLY DID SOMETHING WRONGLY... Furthur more i didn't know what the hell... ah.. but thxs Suling.. she pointed me another path to take... After that.. the parade started.. 8.15 standby.. marching of GOH with Drum Solo ( how disgrace - on top of that.. the snare drum spoilt ) that's all.. the other contingents juZ fall in.. not even a bit of enthuism.. haixXxZ.. for ur school... those sec 2s... "-_-"Next on...5 down.. N so happen the 1st down was from NPCC.. supposingly the best uniform group around.. Tan Say Pin immdiately " CAll the first aiders".. haixXxZ but the guy didn't fall... he juZ squat. Kat couldn't keep still.. kept moving.. Mr Neo say she move so obvious.. in the parade.."-__-" Da Siao Jie la her... seldom stand so long de.. some more quite stiff.. made her and zenice use the -sir na de ri- position, putting down 90 degrees... instead of perpendicular upright... that one the clarinet did... =P OoOps.. felt quite bad.. shd have told them use also.. but for them.. in concert position is put up.. while ours is lying on our lap..Mdm Oen came not long after.. lots of pp say she looked chio- er coZ she seems to slim down.. er.. no comments.. she does look much better.. that's one thing.. but i didn't pay much attention to her.. after that ? The parade ended juZ like that.. After that Alice passed me her clarinet and zhao.. yupXz do admin in Band room till they come back... covered Quater Mistress Kat And Keli's job for today.. they damn busy la.. since i free... so help lor... buckler all that.. help clarinet with taking down of instruments no... come back liao... then go clementi.. KFC... band camp stuff...31 - 2 ... then go out play Pool with Ssm And WX.. then go PS.. after that... returning that time.. saw Darius at clark Quake.. have i juZ turn fate around again.. ? CoZ.. if shd..nVm.. crapping bah.. it's juZ so happen to be ... So happens to be ?.. how many times have i tried to forget the past.. i guess same goes to alice bah.. wounds may heal... yet a scar will remain... scar of the past... affected by flashbacks.. haixXxZ.. the flashback... now.. was June.. 2 yrs ago.. late both of them.. Kat and bin mei.. Yi Lin was kind enough to tell them off nicely.. Kelvin also got them kat.. with glasses... bin mei.. late.. kat was waiting for her... that.. perharps is the ultimate diff. glasses no glasses....whatever.. tired... going to rest early... i'll juZ sleep... what can i possibly do.. 'When i open one side of the door.. u refuse to open the other.. how can i see u ?' Y do i even go to the extend of kneeling down to beg u to open the door sometimes ?.. i juZ tink i'm stupid sometimes.. but like i told hui ying.. even if the ship is sinking.. at least salvage it or save it so that it can land..I dun like to die juZ like that.. sometimes it's juZ a mis understanding.. yet... forget it bah...we'll c.. my mind is juZ clouded..Maybe some rest will do.. today didn't help much..Though got jokes n laughter.. yet..what's the matter ? i also dunno..Seeing darius i wanted to say hi to him.. ask him y he at clark quake... at the same time.. feared... but the MRt made the decision.. it closed the gate the second i saw darius.. haixXxZ... i guess... i'll.. juZ.. sleep...nIteZz
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