Today... Is graduation. I expect tears to run down, however, maybe becoz wen hui was sitting next to me, i didn't dare to let my tears to go down.
Moreover, it's not me to tear. My heart's hole has finally been restored with the touching speechs of SRJC. Maybe there's always a time to think, and that is when we work hard, we deserve to play. N that after playing, there is always this time for reflections.
The time now is like 1.20am ? while i'm busy flickering my fingers on this keyboard of my labby. I slept awhile juz now, from 6+ to 8+, almost 2 hours. I've been taking more naps lately. It's still quite busy, despite having no more exams. Napping isn't something i love to do, but truely, most of us have been using our brains too much.
zZz, i got to complete my promos database by NoV, leaving December to slack abit in de activites, then move on, preparing de JC 2 stuff taught during the holidays. That's roughly a goal, so i'd plan for a database soon.
Today is also Ms Kok's speech, last day at the Collegue. She won't be addressing us any more, no more principal. What the 19th Student Council place was a very nice slide show of photos, showing her throughout the years in the collegue. i muz say, i almost teared when the last slide came. It was showing Ms Kok's office, entittled " Ms Kok Good Bye". It's juz 4 plain words, with a picture, that makes us feel so touched. I feel that it's quite well done. =)
Meanwhile, other departments also came out with what they have. Mathematics have their "100% equation" which i intend to write down one day. GP have Mdm Ainon to give her elegent speech. Well, PC was abit boring becoz Mr Eric hui have nothing to say except the bibble. Oh come on, we'r not having chapel. Love >< Why muz it be defined in the way of a bibble, instead of the dictionary ? SD, i tink that Mr Philip Tan's slide show was also quite well done. On the overall, i'm happy today, in the sense that i feel warmth in my heart, despite on the verge of tearing. I felt glad that i was a SRJCian, not de first time, but one of the many times despite the teachers putting us down. Maybe every school has their own traits. SRJC, u have left with me many fond memories.
Apart from those happy ones, Felicia did not make it. I guess it muz have hurt very much when anyone walks up to say "congratulations to those who were promoted to JC 2." I thought if i were not promoted, i would feel quite hurt. Ya, not only felicia, but those who also did. Therefore, i think that my close escape was really something really so rare.
I know who's responsible for my phlight. I did understandestimate the power of love. BecoZ i know now, my greatest strength lies in the strength of the bonds in relationship, and that weakness is i worry about it. Ppl say, the only way to be happy, is not to have sad memories but we dun choose what memories we keep. So, the only way to do so, is to forget all the sad memories. Forget that someone who made me in that way. It's really hurting still. But, the hole in my heart was mend by the warmth i felt today. It was really very warmth.
Like what hui ying said " Happiness is like pee ing in your pants. Everyone can see it, but only you can feel the warmth".
I guess, that's really true. For the next year, i'll have to seek out my own path, doing my best ever, juz like Mr Yong. Mr Yong shared his story with us, about slacking, skipping lectures in year 1, they sounded juz like Wei Xin. BUt wei Xin did pretty well. After all, he has the talents. Meanwhile, i have fallen for someone. It's true, Keli, my love advisor (consultant) told me so. it's not a crush. awww.. the girl isn't very nice looking, so am i not. Does that make us a pair ?
I really dunno. After A's then i will decide. She's not from SR. She's from somewhere so much better in standard in SR. M i trying to do de impossible again??
i tink i shd go sleep first. Tml have class outing. Piano in the morning. SianX. Wanted to rest awhile totally, but cannot. PW, Piano and so on. They're really a whore sometimes. But i'm doing fine, first 3 months also liddat lahs. =)

That's all for to nite.
Gd NiteX.
Sleep Tight.