Some how feel sian to type.
Maybe i'm juz lost..
coz i'm abit restricted in band. Somehow, the empty feeling of not having it juz draws into me. On top of that, i dunno who's de new council ? + i didn't even attend that posting session.
Keep telling myself, dun go. It's okZ one. After all, those who deemed as righteous people n tink they can elect people so be it. After all it's a democratic voting mahs. Juz one thing that worries me is what about those who choose not to accept what that is being given to them.
That's history for my batch, but will it continue once more ~?
From sec 3.. i've been on this move to make things work. Juz feel kinda stupid why m i doing all the undercover stuff such as calling people, sms ing people about next band pract and stuff like that.
But i guess at least it still gets done, my reward? Respect from cassandra's batch on. Though cassan always joke wif me =X
For SR ? I guess i gain more from juz my saxophone solo instead. I muz say, it indeed took some courage to go forth this new instrument, but it indeed strengthen my faiths and beliefs. Impossible is missing, but if shd we even give up before trying, then what use would it b ?
Can't help reminding myself. Gerald keeps telling me brasses are owning winds. But what was the situation back then last year? During this whole period to even this year's Feb?
It can be done it shows. Cannot bring myself to admit she is another clone of chester. That means alot of things. Such an accomplished friend. But wasted~...
Nevermind, i shdn't care about such things. Enough of band ler i guess.
Now that even Ch dun wanna say abt de new ruling, i'll juz stick back to " i dunno anything" n busy myself when the time for vibrante to be in action. Well.. it seems like it gotta be tat way. let it b..
Dunno y i'm feeling bad, maybe coz i'm being left out ?

But, the best parts about now is her.
This few days been spending time with her. Like today.
She agreed to lunch =) Then after GP paper wanted to take a cab back to new town to see gibert they all. However, i called them at 11.45am. Then i was like diao~ might be quite jia lat time time time !
then i guess i went to Koven's taxi stand and the taxi stand was like.. 3 people but the taxi was soooooo~ far sight. One cab came, then u know what ? It switched to "on call" -__-
I decide not to go back new town then, called Gibert again. Then mr neo came ler, so he put down the phone. Blur blur him. Can't even tell me when the next pract. Then sms her. She says she waiting to go back..
Took train from koven to Chinatown, then take 33 to Opp. Fairfield Methodist Sec bus stop. She was there ler, sms me ler. Then we waited for 196 n go Jurong point.
Ate Macdonalds. Took de new teriiyaki burger. She ate double cheese. It was dam cool.. i sat there n observe her nibbling her burger. She does eat slowly, n gracefully.. she told me tml going out wif val. From last friday.. val said wanna go out with her. LoLs.. tink she looking forward.
Then walk around wif her around JP. Feel so nice wif her around. Walk into sports link then she talked abt how bad we boys were at badminton, only know how to smack. =X Lols.. but the shuttlecorks were cheap. from usual price 36 bucks to 29 bucks.
Then wanted to sent her back, but she made me stayed on the train. Then she saw me putting her chinese name in my phone, then she placed mine in her phone. On the overall~ it was pretty sweet of her. >_< but i'm afraid she might in turn put everything in her heart. i wouldn't know if i hurt her then. scared =X
Then.. thursday night she played for service for church. She's not a christian, but then she juz play. Like guest player like that. Well, then she told me she ate chilli, then i say tuning sure sharp =X. Hahax, ya, she was like my tuning all sharp, got to pull pull pull. Well, then send her back all the way to her lift lobby. It was like.. Dam quiet for her ? Sometimes juz wonder is she safe or not. It's quite quiet lahs at night. You can't really hear much noises. Normally you'll see people juz stoning there, drinking soft drinks, chatting into late of the night, but her estate- none. Dunno..
Seeing her is so beautiful. =X Maybe i'm love sick ar -__-.
But i dunno how to kai kou. On top of tat, it's like.. a 3 yrs wait. One day i'll have to be honest wif her. I really dun wan her to wait 2 yrs for me. But how can i say i entrust her to the arms of others? What a headache. One day i'll solve it, but i tink i've more or less settled tis:
If you are gone, i shall wait for ur return..
even if it's eternity, forever or till my death.
It has started to sprout in me. Tis will grow slowly n best is becomes a promise to her 4ever. =)
But, shd anything happens. I would like to thank you for everything that you have given me so far. All de memories n times we've gone out together. Though sometimes you hurt me during feb part, but i guess it's coz both of us also dunno how to express things out. You hestitated, while i was unsure.
Also, should anything happen to me, i would entrust you to others. I will not want you to grieve n despair whole life. Even shd it be a bit, it will take much pain to you. It will pain me to see you like this. So Esther mei, should anything happen during my wait, let me wither away in her memories.. n you, as my mei to look after your jie for as long as you can.. try not to hurt her with the fact of "i have fallen for her."

I sound like stating a will, but if i dun state it i guess no one knows what i'm tinking of. N juz in case anything happens. My chest aches.
Doctor says it's strain on my muscles. + the chest aches when my heart beat v. fast, when you walk very fast, or run. >_< Tuesday PE, i ran 2 rounds n i had to stop becoz it was aching. But the pretty doctor assure me it's allright. Anyways, 3 hours wait juz to see her n she was like " it's perfectly all right" even though she did apologise wif " sorry to keep you waiting".
Aww well.. i'm tired. I tink i'm keying in junk.
=X
NightXz