was hunting for songs. =X
Kinda headache. Somehow, now i know why heart aches are really like tat powerful.

It juz me lahs.
Somehow i seem to take her outings for granted. Somehow keep wanting to meet her.
However, coz she doesn't like going back home again, n that muz c her mood too.
=X
it's been great though i was rushing down to meet her everytime after her school.
that's the big dilemma..
While i deciding to cast some time for studies, i m afraid to lose her.
It's juz like a contridiction..
I know that if i tie her down, she would be waiting for 3 years long.
Yet i dun tink it's wise to do so ?
But, it seems like for now even..
i try to make much for her, so that maybe when A draws nearer, we both sure will miss each other..
how sia...
Or maybe Master Yoda was right- Fear of losing is the path to the dark side.
Learn to let go we muz.
Hais... ~ LoLs..
it's turning to 12 n i 'm still chatting wif her via sms.
like it's a sin lahs !! i shd be studying.
Realise my brain cells have a limit.
On top of that, my body is dying of insufficient sleep. Study too much ler.
Hais.... zZz.. I tink i over manipulated my mind.
Ytd.. Morning tuition for 2hrs straight, lunch, economics, before going to meet her, walk, then send her home, before going home piano awhile, then economics. N summary.
To tink of it, i like completed almost 3 topics of market structure ytd n reading like half de syillabus of J1 Economics?
Does that sound like a feat ? Bet not ! bet some other people would have memorize it when i read it. zZz..
well, it indeed was ytd that mummy was cutting and preparing dinner. now that she has gone to taiwan, indeed i miss her. =X
My dad sure kick up 2 big fusses ytd. Like wth.. sian diao.. abit really buay tahan him sometimes. Juz wonder how others does. But he is my dad, n my only fulfillment is to treat him like some people.
A dad's duty is to look after his son. Well, it's not his son duty to withstand his bombs that explodes every single time at the slightest thing. Problem is, sista also inherited some of his =.= Tian ar. Anyways, it affects entire the whole household, the best solution is for me to juz shuddap n pretend i didn't hear anything. I'm already like trying my best not to get close to him, in case he juz explodes again. zZz scary~
N i actually able to lived through it. Somehow as days get stresser it's like that.
But no matter how stress we are, we shdn't feel that way. We shd not be bothered by things which we shdn't.
=)

Well, today.. talk about our common test results at 9.15am. I was still at home at 8.30am. Win liao rite ? zZz, i thot it was wed lahs ~ thot got check up, quickly jumped up, then realise it was tuesday. I'm like dam random, i know it's wed, but somehow juz forgot =.=
Reached school at 9.18am but i dun dare go in lahs. I went to canteen buy soya bean, then came back saw another 2 went in then i followed. Seems like Ms Sim was talking.. blah blah blahs...
Lester was sitting in front of me when i walked to the last row, i juz tapped him when i sat. Sian..
Ms Nancy Peters did some motivational talk, but i felt the morning was kinda wasted by motivation. Morning is the freshest to study.. yet.. wake n do tis kind of thing ?
Took the 1st table from the floor 2 where we winds usually do sectionals there. sat there till jeremy called me for lunch.. then ask him come up then we went to canteen, found that it was full then go outside de nearest coffeshop, full also then go opposite the school that one.
She sms me asked if i was ok for the talk, then i replied still ok,then she called me. thanks for the concern =)

Maths lecture was like that. Mr asokan made things clear. True enough, i could get hold of it, juz dun understand why i can't apply it. zZz. Then she sms me after class she finished, at the same time Mr Anaur came up on stage n spoke. Lols, then filled my consultation slots n called her. Settled to wait for her juniors at tiong then. Meet at Tiong. Reached there like 30 mins after her ? =X LoLs.. abit kinda bad, i went home first mahs to grab my stuff.
Went long john to eat n slack lors. first time she looked stunned at my theory works. then i taught her some minor stuffs. After that let her hear Variation on korean folk song. i was right abt something bothering her but she didn't say what. so nvm. Then left her bahs.. coz her juniors come ler. Xiiao shi mei also came along, first thing ask me " i grow taller right?" i didn't know how to reply, so i said " ask joanne =P" hahax...
Well yahs.. juz worried abt her somehow. Yet over worrying maybe ?
I shall try to restrict myself.
Love will kill a vampire, because undead are not to have feelings?
zZz.. if that's so, then let de curse b.
But.. of course, my old seal remains. De layer of ice still surrounds my frozen heart.
Leakage has allowed much to flow, but i guess.. on the overall, the ice holds back much of me.
Because i myself has other commitments to hold forth.. n i can't tie her down either..
Let time determine bahs...

Ru guo you yi tian wo shang ler ni, qin ni rei liang wo.
( if one day i hurt you, pls forgive me )
I'm sorry..

Wan an~