Somehow, words lost throughout the few days maybe be better off forgotten, yet..
Given a chance to remember or forget ? i tink i still prefer to remember. It's hard to forget..
N forgetting you is the greatest mistake.
Sounds so contridictionary.
You hurt me so much to led me to forget you.
Yet i can't forget you becoz you have hurt me so much.
=X It's that feelings lors. Well.. Begining from wednesday.
I had piano exam, de usuals. Like 2 years ago. But anyways, it was always an Ang Mo. How come ang mo always be examiner ? LoLs, we should have more Asians.
Went back for band after that. My Longford Legend sounds better says everyone. Dunno why. My solo has improved =D even though i'm still noob. >_<

When she talked to me. That was when the above feeling came about. Somehow, my heart aches. it was juz like a simple conversation. Maybe i was tinking too much. I asked her how she was doing. She said " Dover ITE". I like totally told her what's around there blah blah blahs.. like so worried liddat. Partially is becoz down the road all the way past SP is my school. Like grayson say, New Town is juz next to Singapore Poly. Guess what ? the next part i said " if u need anything, you can look for me" N she said "juz make sure you dun forget that"
I can only smile weakly at the sentence when it appeared at the msn window. Me and my stupid ideas again. It contridicts myself again. Seeing her makes me feel abit hurt sometimes, tinking of not being able to convey my love across. But it's better off her like that then to let anything happen. So, my stupidity still doesn't really stand if she's better off.
After all, i've sorta gotten used to it. My heart has suffered more than this. That's why i choose to seal it. What use will love bring if it fails to bring happiness for you and me.

Hais, i've been so touchy on this stuff. >_< Feel myself a failure at this kind of things even if i'm the one that's been motivating people. Well, I have to play solo for 02 Orientation CCA Bazaar. Oh.. juz good luck to me. =X
Band newsletter 03 march issue is out. Xiiao Shi Mei is agreeing on one point of mine. Hais.
Let's hope it changes for the better.
Mei, reflections.
Was day dreaming as i was hearing titanic Medley. It's so touching when i tink of it.. wif awww well, her. though it's stupid i know, but well..
Today.. Orientation.. Jimmy from Dance gave Chee Hao some free food. Apparently it seems to me like out of 1 K J1s.. like about 1xx or less pon, leaving surplus of food. Food still have to be eaten. A tray of Bee Hoon was kindly generously donated,4 packs of rice. Me, Kay Yoke, Fan Ming, Jue Xuan, Chee hao took the Bee Hoon till left like 1/4 then Grayson eat them all up. Surprisingly he could finish. =X LoLs.. well.. then Fan Ming and I took a pack of rice each, agree ing that the food was better than last time.
JC is different from Secondary school. The path i walk now has no guarantine, becoz it's not easy to tred on grounds which you are unfamiliar with, be it band or studies.
But the drive is there. A motivation to strive for the better,
For SYF, for Band, For GOLD !
For CT II, Mid Years, Prelims and A's ! Ace them wif A's.
61 Days to SYF.
My solo will bring tears to the audience. =D