Entry From Ebloggy - ( Public )-
Let's say.. darkness has comed to my world.. it seem to turn into the same passage as 2 yrs ago..BUt however i'm still fine.. Frankly, been tinking it's all my fault that started it.. if i haven't said y ur cadets so desparate? Wanna know y i asked ?Once there was this guy who went to ask a gal which school she was from since she was from the same CCA. Not only did the boy not get a reply, the boy became an eye sore to the gal. Is that possible ? If u tink it isn't possible, then u are wrong. I'm the boy. From then onwards, i told myself. It's no use. U are too pathetic...How does those 2 cases relate ? Simply, juZ a matter of complex thots. Also dunno how to explain... Wanted v. much to travel somewhere with my bike, to enjoy the scenery and the ride But.. the bike failed. The wheel some sort of was flat. Went to Wei Xin there to use the pump. BUt, like last time.. it's spoilt. Nothing unusual right ? BUt.. if i were to say, the tubing in the wheel was only changed abt a few months ago ? There's no way the tubing would spoil so fast won't it ? And i haven't used for like one month, no air is naturally YET it cannot even pump air liao ? then ? What is it ?-Sometimes i wished i hadn't cross the boundary.. n cause all that crap.. yet it's happening inside.-I juZ wish to live a normal life. Looking at other pp, enjoying their moments wif friends.. laughing, joking, chatting, talking, enjoying.. I look at them. How many actually lived the life i so desire.. and that how many actually knew the pain of losing someone. The main reason y i've been so serious up these days is i 've let down too much pp.. Bin Mei, Sec 3s, now even minjia and yubin, my close friends. Bin Mei likes to suan me last time, still rembered her "Andy always gets up the bus first"Always did that, coZ would like to find a comfortable seat.- First come first serve- But that wasn't my priority anymore.. Meanwhile the sec 3s.. I was the one encouraging them to participate actively to go SYF, the one who could stop sorta stop chester but didn't work.. which resulted in the immediately the day after when we encourage them to work hard for SYF, we had to tell them we are not going. It was a cruel reality, it dawned on me several times. It was really hurting. I didn't cry that time, no tears, i know these kind of things will leave an impact, slowly, it will then heal very very very very slowly. juZ like what happened 2yrs ago, i couldn't bring myself the fact i didn't c her on her last. I was an Idiot.. bowling anytime also can de mah.. y didn't i go with the bus ?! I even dragged suhaimi wif me. He could have gone..together wif the bus to c her last... now, i caused both my friends's reputation loss. If anything concerning me jUZ say it.. Yi Ren chou shi Yi Ren Dang..haixXxZ.. Will have to try to finish copying Sec 1 book 1 A & B Mj needs it back. i won't hold back to the book. Episode 131 of naruto is saddening !! =(.. What if u wakes up one day and find that u are alone, all ur clan/ family members are gone.. they are all killed by ur brother.. for what reason ? To test his capacbility.. v. sad. A huge downpour rains on sasuke as he walked the empty street of his clan, then is empty house, remb his dad and mum. Will that happen to me ? I dunno.. mum.. Gd luck for ur operation !.. that's all bah.. got to go copy.. TaKe CaReZz..'Scattering the ashes of today into the air.
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