Today ~... 30.4.2005 [private]

Entry From Ebloggy - ( Private )-

Wah ! Scary.. it's 30.4.2005 !! One more month to Chinese 'o' lvl. Today's entry gonna be long. GOt maybe what i call loads of crap to write yet this crap is gonna be useful. Somehow.. thxs.. they helped me alot. Let's c...Today went wif piano lesson. Mdm Chaung was telling me her method of teaching primary school students Music. Interesting ! then she gave her views on chi lesson when i told her abt mid year exam and 'o' lvl chi, including the format change. Chatted after that for awhile, manage to understand more abt things. The interest of Learning.. frankly isn't arousing curiousity or interest the first step to learning ? Ha ha.. DJ influnced by me to play piano after 'o's bah.. Then after that ask Xm wan go study.. then he say okZ after lunch.. was going to habourfront then they changed the venue. Fellowship: Wini, Mil, Darius, Me and Xm and huei chin. Darius and mil meet wini at chinatown MRT, Xm and me wait there. Huei Chin was on her way when she forgot to bring her wallet. Well, then go suntec.. food court there.. study. Mr Chan's worksheet turned out to be a difficulty.. Regret not doing them earlier so that can ask him.. ha ha finish 3 of his worksheets. Wah, muZ flip here and there then try understand.. Guess to get A1 in Chem really really quite hard. I'll work hard.. after that ? Darius, Wini And Qing part to meet someone else..then while Mil, I , Xm go Esplanade see Ash. Suppose to be Mil going Esplanade, XM dunno y wan go see ashley, i follow XM de.. so end up on the same path. Mil didn't know how to walk, Xm too.. okZ then i lead, then see liao leh.. go ah ma house. The feeling juZ seems great.. to be back at the place whereby i haven't been for like 2 months.. yupXz.. as well this place.. Toa Phayon.. i'll nV forget what happened... good or bad.. after that go arcade, then go home..More of my thots to say.. frankly.. i tink i got a bit of the picture. what ever it is.. i'm not going to care either. In this world.. there are things known as facts. Facts = World Truth. It means that everyone in the world knows that. Throw an apple and ultimately it'll land on the ground( provided nothing on the ground). Yet not everything is facts. Somethings are juZ there to like stop u ? ( this is kinda hard to explain, it juZ goes in my head) for example.. like to stop pp from having the thot of killing, usually, from young, we tell pp it's wrong to kill.. in human all that.. so it grows in u.. then u know. But y pp still kill ? Exceptions aren't they ? okZ, then it links to my 2nd point which i thot of. As much as u wish to live in a peaceful village, what if one day something happen, like a tribe attack or a natural disaster, won't u have to leave the village or seek other grounds ?Basically, yes u have to.. and leaving the village to step out into the world is tough. U dunno where u are going, u dunno what u going to encounter. So that's what friends are for isn't it ? To put ur trust in them, to help them, they help u back.. to solve matters, to have someone to depend on. However, not forgetting.. that though there are friends.. they are also pp who see u as an obsticle.. an eye sore. To get from one place to another is somewhat an aim or a goal, yet when someone blocks ur way isn't it an obsticale ? So usually, first impression when ur way is blocked is this person muZ have no manners bah.. then maybe u would say excuse me those type.. BUT.. What in the world has it got to do wif reality ? Probably everything.. or only a small bit. I didn't mention earlier.. at the food court, while wini and the rest went toilet leaving me and Xm, he asked me a Qn whereby i interpreted from his words.. the next part of the story i guess.. i was right.. it all came from ..wini.. maybe bah.. Xm ask me.. What in the world happened between u and wini ? I told him I dunno.. i didn't do anything ! He said wini muZ have heard wrongly from someone. I dun care who that someone is.. it's clearly an mis understanding.. okZ, so relating back, i happen to be the one blocking her way okZ ? then what ? Given her character.. of course she would juZ bash the way through, frustrated when someone blocks her path. Guess that's what happen bah... I dun have anything to say.. BUt.. something to carry on..However, tink again, maybe if shd she nV bash her way through by making that *event* happen.. we would nV know what really did went on in her mind won't it ? Or rather not we.. I.. in my sense or my thots, i won't know that i'm blocking her path isn't it ?However there is no Need to cause so much damage ? now is not only me lor.. loss of communications.. somehow i feel and the numb feeling.. Y did u bash through!? By bashing through, i stumbled and fell.. while u rushed ur way through. Before i pick myself up and give an apology, u r already gone. IF u had at least said " excuse me", i would have given u what i was there for maybe ? or even an apology.. Clearly maybe it was an mis understanding lor !? What if i was stepping on my own road but she walked the wrong one ? Y won't that happen ? I know maybe i'm abit harsh saying all this but y m i made to accept the fact.. that i'm being bashed up all the time.. ?Through out my life, if u tink it's happy, i won't say that. I'll say i'm most fortunate instead. Who else in the world could get a rival at the age of 10++ becoZ of some cock stuff, sacriface a malaysian trip for school yet ending up wif nothing much, get 3 shocking events in a year, hand phone being extorted, get 3 gals to hate u to their core of their hearts , have been an eye sore of one for 6 yrs and running, being the opposite shadow of the irresponsible leader..Maybe there's more, but i won't say anymore. Makes me the real me bah.. wif out all this.. maybe i won't known much.. i won't know a lot of things.. maybe i was juZ being childish.. believed in peace.. How would one stay out of trouble.. fairy tales aren't they ? DrmZ world aren't they ?.. It's not that i dun wish to drmZ, they are far too impossible to happen, espicially in my life.. So, initially i was tinking.. isn't this what we always say.. learn from mistakes ? Maybe those aren't mistakes bah, but i still learn quite some from them. The importance of co- operation and understanding. YEt.. coming to this point, i still feel the same way. It's puzzling to see things of different exsistence under the same main category.. wini wrote on the grp blog dunno to who: "U may be a nobody to the world, yet u may be a important person to someone."okZ, so she knows doesn't she ? She also understands this big world out there isn't it ? BUt does she know her own mistake ? Nah.. i doubt so.. but i guess.. that's were we all fail.. to really know our own weakness.. brings me back to one person.. winifred seto.. Maybe it's juZ her life la.. She's too tom boy- ish ? She tried to kick Peter's groin when he accidentally slipped and nearly touch her chest -accident- Shee Kwang related he kana scolded for nothing coZ he was made a scap goat. First impression of Winifred Seto. However, what's this story of her petting wif a guy ? Who knows ? It's juZ a rumour bah.. mistake ? Fault ? To tink now that i'm looking at my own reflection in the water, looking at my troubled matters slowly.. i thot it would be wise to wait..Yet, it was then i realised.. it's wise to wait.. BUT wait wif a reason.. i have juZ found the reason. TO give others a chance to sort things out. Now, damage is not wif me, i'm more worried abt the rest bah. Let time heal the wound.. It doesn't make any difference if anything happens now.. if u believe in me.. come seek the answer from me. Only i and i truly.. have the answer. No One else might know.. unless u are able to see beyond the things here.. Horoscope was right ? the one on today: Had i not dragged myself out to face it, i won't have known much.. and last week on 'I' issue: i shd have shut my mouth the last time maybe.. well.. i guess that's all for now bah.. =) LivIng life to the fullest - TaKe CaReZz*I'll change this place.. to avoid furthur confusion..Come Seek Me for the answers,for only i and i truely have them*the answers for = ? The next...